sushee, I can sympathise and I'm a childcare worker. I thought I'd have no problems starting back at work, I thought I'd have to go back this month but thankfully we figured it out and I can stay at home until March. Now I am putting DD's name on waiting lists and I am fretting about it and I don't have to go back until March next yr. A positive of it though could be that it might be good for him to start now so that he has time to adjust to being at childare before you start work. At least now if he's upset when he first starts you can just leave him for a short time and pick him up if you need to. You won't be worrying about him while your'e at work and being distracted. He gets to get used to things slowly before he HAS to be at childcare for four days a week.