Oh Mel, I'm sorry you're doing it tough ATM I wish I had some wise words for you, but I'm useless as a mother of one! I'm sure some of our more experienced mothers will be able to help better than I. I wish I was closer to you, so we could meet up, have a laugh and distract you LOL. As for the washing liquied, I think Amolin works really nicely on nappies, but I currently use a 'green' liquid, usually whatever's on special. But I really like the Earth Choice, the EXTRA STRONG one not the regular. Hang in there hun, things will get better.