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Come on in CheekyMonkey, the bed is warm.
I'm going to have a bit of a whinge here, sorry girls. I'm really struggling at the moment, the past couple of days to week Savannah has really thrown sleeping out the window. We're down to one half an hour nap a day, and to top it off, her night sleeping has gone out the window. Three nights in a row she was waking every 20 minutes, and wouldn't let me leave the room again without getting upset. Over night she's been waking every hour, and from 4am onwards just isn't settling. She was up at 5:30am the other morning!
I feel like I'm not getting a break anywhere - she doesn't sleep during the day, she fights sleep going down at night, wakes all night and is up at the crack of dawn. At least give me ONE break somewhere.
To make my life just so much better, my right boob seems to be doing... something. I think it's actually causing a lot of the problems over night. It feels full, like rock hard in some spots, but I don't think it's emptying properly. I have all these hard lumps, but expressing (either via the pump or my hand) does nothing. So I don't think Savannah is getting enough to eat, and thus, not sleeping properly. And of course me, in my tired it's 4am go back to sleep state, don't realise and keep putting her on the same side because "oh, that's the full one".
I'm having a real "I feel like such a failure" day today. A lot of is due to a family get together yesterday which, urg, was not good. Especially with a very old fashioned MIL and a SIL who completely agrees with her. Gee I ticked both of them off yesterday when I didn't bow down and kiss their feet for showing me the light that controlled crying, lots of noise when sleeping and drugging with nurofen where the answers to my prayers.
And then today I wanted Krispy Kreme donuts and she started crying the second we were in the car because she was so tired. Waaaa! No fair!
At the rate I blame teeth, Savannah should have 50 by now!think it might be teeth but I feel like Im always blaming teeth
I think this is the biggest problem (my problem) with reading the Science of Parenting. It made me think that Savannah could never cry. That any time she even started to get distressed (and I mean the real crying, not the sooky whinge crying) that stress chemicals were washing over her brain doing irreparable damage. Then every time I get frustrated or raise my voice a little, I worry that she's "loving in torment" and what that's doing to her. Basically after reading the book I feel like every time I do something it says you shouldn't do, even for 5 seconds, I'm stuffing Savannah up.BTW, wrt Science of Parenting: a baby who has never cried (I really believe that one) compared to a baby who is in an orphanage from birth and probably not had much cuddling or love. I think no parent here will hit either extreme no matter what they do, but it is saying it is better to show love and respond to a baby's distress than not. So you drop the ball 1% of the time, that isn't going to scar your child for life.
).Well I only got 20mins from her and I had to spend 45mins trying to get that and I was trying to get myself ready aswell as clean the house and prepare lunch-so stressfull! Anyway she wasnt to bad to start with but then got grizzly and upset. We had been talking about solids and how much they need etc and I said maybe I'll start giving Stella abit more to see if that helps at all...then one of the girls said 'yeah you should cos she's always crying isnt she?' I was crushed 
Ness! Why could I live in Perth hey? I so understand the stress you get when you're wanting to do something and you can't get them to settle. I always try to remind myself that housework/showering lol) and everything else can just wait... but when you've got people coming over it's impossible (for me anyway) to not stress about the state of the house etc. Especially when it's other mothers that always seem to have it sorted, you never want to be 'that mother' that looks like she's not coping.
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