Gracie, there's real pressure in groups of women to look like you're coping just as fabulously well as everyone else. I bet there's someone else there who's having a hard time but is so daunted by all the other totally-in-control-super-mummies they're not game to mention it! Or, all the ones who are finding it a bit harder aren't the ones who are getting out regularly for coffee mornings! It sounds to me like you're doing just find and Lewis is getting a fantastically emotionally secure start to life!