Oh, hugs. It's so tough.

My DS did the same thing, and we ended up co-sleeping. it IS much easier to some degree, and to another, it's not. But we pulled the cot up next to the bed and took a side off it, so DS is still in his cot, and we are in the bed - but we're all together too. To create more room IYKWIM.

When DS was younger I used to rock him, and then we started a lay down jiggle to save my back Does that make sense? You can rock him, whilst lying down. Put his head on your shoulder, with your arms around him, and you can just sway back and forth lying down. My DS doesn't need that now - I guess it is a form of transition into other things. He still needs ME, but not the jiggling. So we're getting there. I hope that can work for you too!

I agree with the others, you sound quite anxious at the thought of sleep school (I would find it pretty scary too I think) - maybe it is not for you? I know you can email Pinky McKay (check her website) and she si great at getting baack to you. She does visits too, are you in Vic?
If you do decide to go to Tresillian, I Would just be upfront that you want GENTLE solutions, not CC. They actually do not recommend CC as a policy anymore I believe, but some individual nurses still favour it. So just be honest and make sure you get what suits you - NOT what doesn't. Because the last thing you need is to feel bad about yourself or your parenting.

It sounds like you're doing a great job at a tough age! I hope you find help here.