For no good reason I can fathom I'm really emotional. On FB, my sister made a comment that watching her step-daughters child born was the most rewarding experience of her life, and she didn't mention her own kids, so I asked to clarify, because if it was me saying what she said and I had kids, I would have said "next to having my own children, it was the most rewarding experience of my life" but she didn't and I asked to clarify (yes, being a bit dumb blonde I guess, don't know why my brain just isn't working) so she got stroppy and started swearing and abusing me.
Normally I'd just get irritated and say 'game on' and turn around and fly abuse right back, but no, not today, I sit here like a wounded puppy CRYING!!!! I don't cry about this stuff!
Have you ever had a random thought enter your head, but within seconds of it being there, you're just convinced its true?
Having a little break earlier to read for awhile, I got this sudden thought in my head that sent me into despair.... the thought said "don't bother going to the doctor for a blood test next week, you're not pregnant" and within a second, I became convinced its true and now I'm sitting here, once again emotional and wanting to cry.
It just... it seems to me like I couldn't get that lucky, it couldn't be that easy, not ever, this is me we're talking about. I'm having irrational hatred for all those teenage mums who get pregnant so easily, and wishing it could be that easy for me. And I'm having even more irrational hatred for all the teenagers who so easily get pregnant and have abortions and throw such precious life away.
I'm going crazy.
Last edited by Moondance; February 3rd, 2010 at 02:50 PM.
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