Chart, symptoms... its all doing my head in!

[Moondance]

Have you ever had a random thought enter your head, but within seconds of it being there, you're just convinced its true?

Having a little break earlier to read for awhile, I got this sudden thought in my head that sent me into despair.... the thought said "don't bother going to the doctor for a blood test next week, you're not pregnant" and within a second, I became convinced its true and now I'm sitting here, once again emotional and wanting to cry.

It just... it seems to me like I couldn't get that lucky, it couldn't be that easy, not ever, this is me we're talking about. I'm having irrational hatred for all those teenage mums who get pregnant so easily, and wishing it could be that easy for me. And I'm having even more irrational hatred for all the teenagers who so easily get pregnant and have abortions and throw such precious life away.

I'm going crazy.