Hi Toni

Sorry to hear it has been a rough time!
I'm new too and in a somewhat similar position to you.
I am almost 31, DH is almost 37 and we have been TTC since July 09.

I have just started using OPK's and will start charting my temp soon as well. I think it will make more sense to me if I can see it all on paper and recognise the patterns/changes visually.

We have finally booked in to the doc for next month... after putting it off for ages because we were hoping we wouldn't need to go and just wanted it to happen without any 'problems' being realised. BUT now that I have made the appointment I feel better knowing that I might get some answers... or at least a new direction rather than just chasing my tail here! It's so hard when there are so many 'what ifs' and 'maybes' and I think that ultimately though it's confronting, going to the doc can mean peace of mind too.

And the 'happy news' is a sore point I really empathise with at the moment too... one of my close friends and my sister-in-law are about to pop. I am so pleased for them, truly... but also a bit sad for me and my fella. It's normal.

hang in there babe, hope things roll along a bit more smoothly in the coming months.
good luck

LMM
xo