Hi everyone! Woowwww...thanks for all the messages, support and information! I wouldn't know who to talk to normally about all this stuff!

Kate- I called Rodney today and you are right- he is fantastic and knows his stuff! He really gave me reassurance about my decision to stay on my meds when i get pregnant, and also put in to perspective the chance of a heart defect occuring (apparently 2% when on antidepressants, 1% in non medicated people) And interestinlgly he touched on why the TGA increased paxtines class of drug to D from C....a bit of a controversial issue but he implied it was a tough crackdown due to the whole Vioxx fiasco.
Anyway he was fantastic, and I'm really happy I called him...thanks!

Jelly Bean- wow! thanks so much for all the advice. I will definately look for that book this weekend. We already have a really good water filter connected to our kitchen sink, however I'm sure i could improve heaps with the additives in foods etc.
I also found the information about acidity-alkalinity VERY interesting...my husband is quite in to natural health and he drinks alkaline water...should i be doing this also?
I am interested to see what I can do to make my body less acidic.
I know you have suggested going the natural way and getting of my anti-D's, and i am completely aware that they don't address the 'root' cause of my problem, however I have tried various routes of natural therapy, including kiniesiology, naturopathy, homeopathy, spiritial healing, hypnotherapy...the list goes on! Nothing has helped. For now my medication is the best treatment to keeping me sane! Its not the depression returning that i worry about, but the coming off the meds that i fear...the three months i tried tapering off previously was the most horrific time in my life, and i dont want to experience that again.

Thanks again everyone for the info! I'm going to stop the pill after this week, and i have already started taking Elevit. apparently i have to go buy 'iodine' supplements also as its not present in elevit.