Thanks ladies, I wrote the post after 2 glasses of red hahaha so I was feeling pretty emotional, lol.

Yas and Kazzo, it's good to know there were 'older' pg in your families! It's so encouraging to hear, thank ladies.

Juniper, I hear what you're saying bun, I just suspect my 'half decent' fertile window was when I was 38. Looking back at my results this year, so 4 years later, the path to conception seems to be that much harder, which is what I expected. I think because we keep moving the cycle out and that damn clock is ticking away so bloody loudly (it's actually gone off now, with full on ringing ) I feel like I am literally running out of time AND eggs