Here goes...

DH and I were married in November 2004, and decided that we would start TTC after Christmas, so i stopped taking the pill just before christmas, with our first cycle starting on Christmas day... Anyway, DH was very excited as we BD'ed lot's and lot's... I ended up with two 34 day cycles, and then a BFP... of course we got the BFP when we had planned a trip to Cairns... we wanted to go horse riding and whit water rafting, but didnt get to do that anyway, we ended up in hospital in Cairns, coz I was bleeding, and had massive pains in the tummy, so that put a HUGE dampner on our holiday. Unfortunatley we m/ced the day we arrived back in Melbourne (I am glad it happened at home though).

So after a massive rollercaster ride of emotions and dealing with the loss of our baby we jumped straight back on the next rollercoaster the second cycle after the m/c but have now been VERY irregular, and diagnosed with PCOS, now it's off to the fertility specialist, at the end of this month to see what we can do. Hopefully we will be pg by christmas, as we were due in early December it is going to very hard to deal with that. Also have been trying to stay positive as I know 19 people that are all fairly close to us that are pregnant. That is hard, especially considering that about 15 were not planned!!!

I don't know what I would have done if I didn't have the support of some of the girls here on BB and my very close friends (2 are pg!). My mum and dad and of course DH have been wonderful, but it is so hard when all you want is to hold your own baby in your arms...

It will all happen for us all though... one day!

Melissa