Yesterday I got on the scales. I have been avoiding the scales since giving birth to DD.
I nearly died when I saw how much I weigh
My weight kept me up most of the night...I am seriously disgusting!
DH wanted to DTD and I kept telling him not to touch me...I started crying. How can I honestly expect my wonderful husband to keep loving me when I am just soo hideous.
I'm not going to wallow in pits of despair tho- at 5am I was in the kitchen throwing out all the stuff I snack on during the day. No-one is going to change this but me. I don't want my DD to have a fat mum and I don't want my DH to have a fat wife and I don't want to be fat ANYMORE!
It seems like such mountain to climb and I am soo ashamed.
Huge massive you are NOT disgusting at all hun and do not despair, I did the same at the beginning of the year and was shocked at the weight I had gained after having DS so I joined WW online and lost weight - still a bit to go but I lost enough to feel good about myself again. You can do it if you want to and there is lots of support around, Calorie King is great and there is a thread on BB and I know the girls there are great at motivating each other and giving tips. Don't be ashamed and although it is a challenge it isn't impossible.
Totally get you hun, for me for ages I was just pretending that it was all ok and that my clothes weren't that tight and revolting on me. I didn't get to any meetings but keeping track of my points really helped me because I am such a sub-concious eater. I eat without thinking about if I am hungry first, if I have had enough for one day of a particular food etc. plus I also tend to eat the kids leftover toast etc and it all adds up. Good luck hun, baby steps and it sounds like you are determined to make it happend.
There is a great website if you google spark people. It is totally free and you can type in all your foods and exercise and it can track it all for you. You can even update it on your iphone. I find it very motivating
Good on you for wanting to change the things you are not happy about.
A healthy Mum/wife is a great thing to want for your family. You are setting a fantastic example for your DD by doing this.
Good for you Good luck on your Journey to inner happiness
Big hugs hun..YOU are not discusting or anything like that
LOsing weight it hard , realising you need to or want to change is the first step and good for you Its so easy to live in denial , i used to
Take it one step at a time ,start walking , i walk everyday i have lost stacks of weight just from that alone and i feel awsome And that snacking i do it as well When you are home its so easy to just eat just because .
A total fat and disgusting moment!
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you are NOT disgusting at all hun and do not despair, I did the same at the beginning of the year and was shocked at the weight I had gained after having DS so I joined WW online and lost weight - still a bit to go but I lost enough to feel good about myself again. You can do it if you want to and there is lots of support around, Calorie King is great and there is a thread on BB and I know the girls there are great at motivating each other and giving tips. Don't be ashamed and although it is a challenge it isn't impossible. 
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