Bec, have you been reading my diary LOL. I could relate to everything you said, including needing to lose 30 kilos

I've been thinking a bit about this the last few days, when I've made no less than 4 ultimatums to myself ... "TODAY is going to be the day ..." on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and today 8-[

For me, the problem I think boils down to perfectionism. The second I eat something that's not 100% healthy, I figure 'ahh, I've messed up again. Oh well, I'll start again tomorrow". But the point of healthy eating isn't to eat perfectly 100% of the time, it's to make healthier choices most of the time, and enjoy other choices for the rest of the time. I never let myself enjoy my treats ... I just feel guilty about them ... and I think I feel guily about them because in the past I have used one treat as an excuse to throw in the towel and go overboard. It's like I don't trust myself to have treats, because I know I can't control myself. I need to start viewing treats as a essential part of my healthy eating plan, rather than going off track. Eating something sweet/fatty etc is not going off track ... it's just part of the healthy eating journey that should only happen every now and then.

Am I making any sense at all? I'm just kind of typing as I'm thinking LOL. For myself, I need to stop this 'all-of-nothing' thinking that leads me to eating the perfect diet for about 8 hours, and then eating the diet-from-hell for the rest of the afternoon.

Sorry to ramble ... I just think I know where you're coming from, coz I'm in the same place ...