There are counsellors who can assist you with the food side of things. I used to work with a counsellor who, before going into the field of Alochol and Other drugs, worked with people who were addicted to food. She is in Victoria though. If you call your local community health service, they will be able to put you in touch with counsellors and then give them a call, explain you want to see someone about anxiety/depression and also to help you control your emotional eating.

I'm also on a weight loss journey. I see a personal trainer twice a week (I'm lucky enough to have a husband who is supportive of spending that kind of money and being able to afford it... kind of). My PT not only works my body, he helps me to overcome my fears (which are pretty much all related to exercise/gym and self esteem) and talks to me about my diet. Perhaps, if you can afford it, try a couple of PT sessions to see if you like how it all works and if you can see it working for you. You won't necessarily see physical changes in just a few sessions but you will get an idea of whether or not it is for you.

You said that as soon as you have one slip up, you give in. Remember that everyone has bad days and weeks (I've certainly had a few!); a slip up need not be the end of it. You have to keep focus of the end goal. And consider it a life style change, not a diet.

Honey, when you're ready, you will kick a$$ at this. I promise. It took me a long time to get to the point of being able to actually deal with my weight and having the motivation to do something about it. 6 years infact. It certainly hasn't been an easy journey so far - but it is one well worth the sweat, tears, pain, and blisters. Last time I weighed myself, I had lost just shy of 5Kg in a little over 5 weeks which might not sound like a lot to most people - but a loss is a loss! And I feel so much better!

Lastly, here are a few quotes I use. Some of these are new to my list (courtesy of a thread on BB) and others have been in use for a long time;

A journey of a thousand miles, begins with a single step.

You are the handicap you must face; You are the one who must chose your place.

If you can imagine it, you can achieve i; if you can dream it, you can become it.

Chin up sweetpea - you can do this and asking for help is the first step in this journey.

MG