Clairebear - I sooo hope you get better news. It is so hard, I am really feeling for you. I guess we both have the dreaded BT Friday..but I know what my news is. I hope and yours is different.

Lissie - thanks for your lovely words. They made me cry in a good way. As you can imagine, today is pretty teary. The nurse at the clinic didnt want to give me false hope and did agree with my feeling (well fact of the faded line)...
But - once again I am getting back on that bloody horse. I am going away for 5 days for a much needed break over the long weekend and will have an FET the week I get back. Then depending on the results will once again go thru the whole horrible process the following cycle (but hopefully I wont have the need) and leave the last 3 embies on ice while I build up the bank again. Turning 42 next week and terrified.

Gargy - you tell em Carm...no bulldozing you!! How was dinner and the show??

So ladies, I will keep you posted..