I am truely thankful for my family, my brother called around tonight with his two boys and we had a good heart to heart, I am most thankful in the fact that my family all live in the same small town and that they are equally as concerned and ready to help with mum as a family unit.
When my nan died (mum's,mum) the last of her brothers quickly left the state which left mum as the only sibling remaining to look after pop, so our family took on this role, maybe it a result of this that we will all band together or maybe it's the fact that we are family and similar minded people (with the exception of one of my brothers, I have 3 by the way)
Dad is heart broken and really struggling and I guess all we can do in band around him and be there for him as much as possible.
Well on a brighter note have had a quiet day at home to help get on top of my latest flair up of cold and Paige had a 5 hour sleep(this will probably come back to haunt me tonight)
How is it that sharing a bed with a 2yr old or a soppy border collie all end up with the same outcome.....poor pg uncomfortable mummy in the tiniest most awkward position in the bed??????????
last night was fun I was sharing with both of them at the same time!!!!!! I think I need to be firmer!!!!!
didn't have a lot of sleep last night (paranoid when Paige is in bed with me and never sleep properly) got 2 hours this arvo whilest she had 5 I was woken up by previously mentioned puppy barking at a cat breaking wind 6 blocks from us!!!!!!(nothing much in other words)
when I was saying good bye to my brother tonight I started jiggling because I had to go to the bathroom, I get back inside and Paige distracts me with something and I sneeze, and for the second time this pg I wet my pants!!!!!! 'MUST DO PELVIC FLOORS, MUST DO PELVIC FLOORS'
I am feeling a bit better and can actually breathe tonight (yep darth vader has been back since sunday)
and I have got over the guilt of taking today off work, I keep pushing myself and It just isn't possible to do everything at once, I need to stop matyring myself and trying to be full time fantastic employee,super mum, single mum, pg mum, sick mum who pushes on over guilt of letting people down, and daughter to a sick mum and stressed dad....did I leave anything out?????
I feel better for having the day off....there I said it!
I am going to take a little time for me this weekend and try to feel a little more in control of my life.
feel better after unloading, sorry if this is a little long winded.