Logically, I know I am a healthy weight (before pregnancy I was ~57kg with a BMI of ~20) but when I see myself, I seem HUGE (not just because I'm pregnant, this is an ongoing thing haha). I have read/heard many times that females often see themselves as a bigger size than they are and I try to tell myself that when I am looking at myself, explain to myself that females are meant to have hips and thighs and breasts like this, that if I can fit into size 10 skinny jeans my thighs must be in proportion (my thighs are my sore spot really) but I can't see it, it actually hurts my brain trying to figure out how I can be this healthy weight but still seem so huge. How do you get yourself to see the reality? I feel like I should be enjoying my body more, appreciate it and all of that, feel good about myself basically; I eat healthy and everyday make sure I've done my 10 000 steps, at least some of which at a higher impact, so it should make sense to me that I am healthy but I can't seem to make it all fit in my mind with the picture I see in the mirror.

I want to accept myself but how do you do that? This has mostly come to a head because last pregnancy I took very limited photos of myself (I think there are two and they are hidden deep on my computer), in fact I avoid photos at most times but I don't want to get to the end of this pregnancy and find the same thing, I want to have photos of me being pregnant! I want to have photos of me in general, with my daughter, with my family, I want to be in those memories instead of simply behind the machinery because I'm self-conscious. I feel like my perception of what is a healthy body must be really skewed from reality but I'm not sure how to alter it. So where are those self-loving people and how did you get there? How do I get there!