Hi BJrose,

I don't think you sound selfish at all!

I was 20 when I fell pg with DS unexpectedly, 6 wks after he was born we were transfered away. DH and I have been together since we were 15 and yes at times I wonder if either of us missed out on anything getting together so young but ultimately it comes back to us being happy now and making the best of what we have and knowing that friends of ours are still out there searching for the love we were lucky enough to find so soon.

As for doing stuff without kids and having some time out etc - yep we miss it which is one reason why we are moving home next year but we still try and make time for each other as much as we can now. DH and I often give each other the night off to go to the movies by ourselves while the other one stays home with the kids.

Now that we have finished having kids I am focusing on moving on to the next stage of our lives, having older kids and being able to do more things. DH and I are currently planning our first overseas trip in 2020 Yep it's a long way a way but it feels good to be planning this.

I think I'm just rambling but just wanted to say - your not being selfish and I know how you feel and feel free to vent and get it out.