TBH, for some reason I have a few tears - I think your post is .... how can i put it -
there is an underlying issue of regret and 'what if'.

Life has so many options.... what if i made the wrong decision, what would life be like without x.

I have friends that had children young, the positives - they'll be free to do child free activities whilst I'm playing Mummy 24/7. I think in the end it all equals out. I've done my education and travelling before the children - where as younger Mummies might study whilst the children are at school and have more disposable income later in life for travel etc...

I think as a parent you always want what is best for your children - you're reflecting on life to give them the best possible.

Geez, I hope that makes sense.

I guess try not to think of regrets and what if I did a, b or c - look forward into the future