I understand where your coming from hun

I thin this is what you mean.........My nana never knew her real family...never knew her dad, was put in an orphange so her mother could go marry some man and having a child would ruin that...my nana was 3 She grew up in Ireland wiht her adoptive family( who adopted her as a play mate for their only girl apperantly )
anyway she moved out here wiht her children( my mum) and husband to be wiht her real mother...who ended up being awful so in the end my mum and her mum had no family but themselves....my mums dad left when my mum was 16

I never knew my mums dad, my dads dad died when i was 6 and I miss him so much...I really feel I have missed out on some bonding as I never had an older male influence...does this make sense? My mum doesnt undertsand why I feel this way as she is so tough( on the outside) and never had a grandad and she is ok *sigh*

Like you we have no real extended family and I crave it...I crave old story telling, learning about loved ones who have passed...I think thats why i want a big family so hopefully I can start my own family tree

xxxx