When DS1 was born I went through exactly the same thing. I definitely think I'm more aware of my - and my family's - mortality since having children. Mind you, that initial intense feeling wore off after a while, and so while I'm more conscious of my mortality now than I was pre-kids, it's not quite so front and centre in my brain as when DS1 was first born.
Oh my gosh! i am going through this right now! and it is upsetting! I watched a tv show on dementia last night and that has made my issue with dying even worse! Along with the fact that for as long as i can remember even when i was a child i always said i would die at the age of 40! i don't know why but it is just a feeling i have had. I am 32 this year, and i don't want to die at 40! i have 2 girls that need their mummy! I worry every day about the day i will leave them
I kind of had this after having DD, but my main concern was who would look after her as no one would care for her the way I wanted and that I'd be upset not to be breastfeeding anymore. I wasn't worried about me more my kids. And I think maybe that's were the concerns lie when these feelings come up after having children.
I only really became comfortable with the idea of death after having DD. I think I felt like I'd achieved what I was meant to achieve and I would always live on as part of her. I know how corny that sounds
Totally agree with Marydean that rather than seeing death as the ultimate in scary, I realise that I have limited time left and am thinking about my legacy which has led me to seeking a career change and setting some priorities for how I want the rest of my life to pan out.
I think also having had some pretty incapacitating health issues, I've had a bit of an insight into what getting older will be like and I can now imagine welcoming death when my body really starts to crumble.
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