Are you in contact with your local ABA group? They can arrange a hire pump for you. A really good one might make all the difference.
You're doing really, really well in very, very difficult circumstances. I'm sorry you're feeling really down about this - you brought your girl safely into the world and you continue to nourish and care for her the best way you can.
MadB I'm using the symphony pump by medela... Is that not a good pump? It's what I used in the hospital.

I haven't called the ABA but I will if tomorrows supply drops. Managed to get 250ml today so far and I have another couple of expressions planned yet so hopefully be close to 350mls

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