I cannot help you with bulk of your post Leasha, but I am wondering if some of the troubles you and Shel have had has helped contribute to this feeling? Sorry if that is a bit too up front its just a thought.

I think regardless, you need to be up front with Shel and let her know how you are feeling. Even if you say that at the moment this is how you are feeling then reaccess again in 6 months time?

Of course I am coming from having no children yet so cannot relate to the feeling you have of being completely satisfied with Jazz.

Just be honest with her.

Nae x