Leasha,

What i wanted to say, BG has said beautifully !

I had a very hard time with DS#2. It was such a stressful time that it took me five years to be able to go back and have DS#3.
After all the ups and downs i needed to get my head in the right place.
Give yourself time - maybe its a bit too early to be setting anything in concrete.

Good luck.

xxxoooo