I always wanted 4 and now have 3. I'm not sure if I'll have a 4th due to finances and the fact I dont get pregnant easily, DH isn't as helpful as I wish he was, family circumstances (my sister lost her little boy and I know it would hurt her terrible for me to have another baby) and the fact I'm of to uni again got another 18months and have a new job. I just don't know. I don't have the finished feeling although no great desire to get pregnant just now (although it can hurt when others do) unfortunately my fertility issues get worse with age so time probably isn't on my side. I'm undecided a BFP would bring us a lot of joy but I don't have that desperate desire like I have in the past. After my last birth I also am scared to do it again but not so much I wouldn't. I also am isolated from the hospital as I'm on s property and that scares me if something went wrong I'm an hr away