I wish I could make things easier for you, make a decision for you.

I was with XH for 8 years, married for 4 years and have a 3 year old DS. After expressing my discontent with our relationship and him not trying to do anything about it, I moved out in January, however, I really thought that we would sort things out and get back together, we were on again off again for 6 months, til last week when I finally told him enough is enough, I finally realised after much pain and heartbreak and toing and froing that our marriage was NOT salvagable.

I had ALL the same worries as you about being on my own with DS and having money to start all over again, plus I still loved XH. I spent countless nights crying myself to sleep feeling guilty about breaking XH heart and breaking up DS family. I made myself sick trying to figure out the right thing to do.

All I can tell you is that eventually you will come to a time where you will just know that its not worth it any more, and you will feel at peace with that decision. You def need lots of supportive loving family and friends around you, I found the girl here on BB are a tower of strength for me.

If you do decide to move on from your DH, things WILL work out in the finish, you just need to learn to ask for help and also to know where to ask for help.

Please put yourself first. You need to do some soul searching and work out what you want in life and if DH can happily live that life with you or not.

My heart goes out to you, plesae pm me anytime you feel the need to vent ot what ever xx