I hear you hon and I don't think you're abnormal or a bad mummy at all, alot of what you have said is familiar to me. We're all results of modern life, lack of community and support. If you can get out the house, even with some BB members for a cuppa, anything, it will help. Its hard to even think about getting anywhere when you feel like this, but see if you can get out or invite someone over, makes a world of difference having someone there with you who can empathise. The only person who can help is you unfortunately Make sure you talk to someone in person at least, not your direct family, so there is no bias or baggage...