Since my brother died i have been feeling so guilty that we live here and my dad is back in the UK. I do have my step brothers and step sister there but they are not his other than though marriage.

The last few days i have been thinking that i should move back to the UK to be closer to him. But part of me knows that we won't have the same kind of life there and i am not sure if DH would come as well.

I'm so messed up and unsure what to do.