Sequoia - I dont have a DH that comes home from work everyday I do have family near by but my sister has 2 babies of her own (same age as mine) and my mum has her own life/problems to deal with without me dumping the kids on her ... i really do feel for you not having family close!

jasp - I think i need to go back to work as well, but on the same hand i cant stand the thought of someone else spending more time with my kids than i do!!! KWIM? that makes sense about 'where you are' in yourself. I dont think i was 'ready' to be a mum.

Ali - i must sound so un-grateful reading your post made me think i should have added that in.. i do love my kids and am so grateful that i was able to have them - i think i just take it for granted sometimes KWIM?

Jitterbug - sometimes i need to walk away from DD or DS but then i go back and smother them with hugs and kisses!! that is so true, i will miss them being this little one day! i think i am the same i wasnt too young i just wasnt ready - it was VERY unplanned and i had so many dreams and goals....

skybie- i think thats what gets at me the most, i have all my friends telling me about all the wonderful things they are doing - traveling, uni, working dream jobs, partying etc... and im stuck at home looking after kids... will be here for support when no2 comes along for you!!! its quite challenging.

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Seriously though - I think there are two things that help me most on those days that are just too much (sleep deprivation is my real patience sapper, I can cope with anything if I am well rested, but I have a child who has difficulty with the concept of sleep so my patience is tested almost continually).
Logan is 'that' child lol
I dont have the energy to keep up with him - there is no way i could take him to the park or even for a walk he gets soo naughty runs off etc and our local park is right next to a river (hes OBSESSED with water)
thankyou for your advice

ETA - chickybabe- when i was with exDF i could call him and tell him how crappy my day was but he just thought i was over reacting and it wasnt that bad... you are one lucky woman