thanks ladies i really appreciate everything.. any advise even support..

the more i think about it the more i am getting angrier and upset.. i feel like i have to tell my mum and i feel like ive been burdened with my dads problems... and i know thats wrong.. i feel like he told me in case i find out and to obe the one who told me so i dont get angry..
but i am angry and i have to tell my mum cause if sdhe finds out and knows i knew and kept it quiet it will make our already strained relationship worse..
i just dont know.. i feel so sick like ive been punched..
but shouldnt i feel happy??