i hated my whole BF and i feel so guilty that i didnt sick with it now but i had no support.

ok i might have this wrong but when u have bub and u have that skin to skin contact dont u usually feed then, not straight away but u try b4 like 6 hrs later or somethign dont u.

i felt so robbed. i have seen so many pics and stories of the first boobie feed and i asked if i was emnt to be feeding her or if i coudl try and they said no. i didnt even get to go with ehr to get measured or anythignthey just took DH and bub away after about 5 min and i didnt see them again for nearly 30mins.

after i got all cleaned up and got settled back into my room had a few visitors they came in and told me i shoudl try to feed her. i coudlnt get ehr to attach so they grabbed her head and just smoshed her face into me until she screamed and opened her mouth then they held her against me. i was nearly crying it didnt look liek she coudl breath.

this happened nearly every feed for the first 2 days. i got her to attach the end of the 2nd day by myself i told them it hurt asked if i was ment to feel a bit of pain or wat they just said it wazs goodi got her on. by the time i got home i had a huge chuck of skin flapping off both of my nipples. i coulnt even express my left one and i got mastitis.

i had a nurse come visit and i was so upset i coudlnt feed dd would latch on at all. she basically told me to deal with it and express for a day. all i could get out was a few drops which was mostly blood anyways. i asked about nipple shields i was told they woudl hurt more.

then i asked my mum she just pushed me to formula. asked the nurse wat formula and how much she woudlnt tell me but woudlnt help me BF either.

Then i dried up within a day.

I really wanted to BF and i feel liek i really missed out and had absolutly no help.