Sunny how are you going with the healthy eating today?

How is everyone else going? I've been quiet as I have been working so much. Really over it.

I'm feeling very very sad right now. I'm up another 3 kilos in 13days. Its so ridiculous. I now weigh as much as I did when I had DD#2 was born and I still have over 10weeks to go. At this rate I'll be 40kilos up and I wasn't even thin or trim or happy with my appearance/weight to start with. I haven't been eating cake, chocolate etc all the bad things I thought was putting the weight on for almost 3weeks and I'm now gaining more then I was when I was eating that stuff. I'm doing way more around the house with cleaning, hanging the washing out when I was using the dryer, mopping, vacuuming etc. I don't know what to do. I feel I'm trying so hard and its not making any difference. I don't even have a big belly its only small and squishy so I can't say its in the belly. So today I've had a no fat yogurt for breakfast, some weight watchers fruit salad without the juice and I have weight watches jelly to snack on and a low fat hot chocolate with no milk or extra sugar. I'm of to the fruit store soon but to be honest I feel like giving up. I've got SPD so exercise is very hard for me plsu I'm more active now at work and around the house then I have been all pregnancy and still the weight is going up and up and up. So sorry for the vent. I feel I look so aweful. All I can think about is my gorgeous SIL who looks fabulous is due a month before me and is up 4kilos and all the parties we have and I am going to look like the ugly frump. I have a huge party a week after I;m due for Gran's 80th (family reunion) and then a wedding. both bubs baptisms etc. Arrr

Anyway vent done. I hope the rest of you lovely ladies are going well with the healthy eating/living and not a sad sack like me. I honestly didn't expect it to get to me. After years ttc I thought it wouldn't matter and worry about it later but not its here its aweful. I feel horrible for feeling like this.