MD- Well that is crappy news love. Hope you are managing to deal with it all ok. I have my fingers crossed it is lymphoma, you would have to be pretty darn unlucky to have both. The cure rates for lymphopma in young people is fantastic, so hoping to ad you to that long list of people asap. Sending all my positive thoughts your way. xoxoxoxoxoxox
Hope you have a good support network going on. Have you told any of the family yet? Big hug.
OK, well I'm having a Designated Crying Day today. I am going to let myself feel really sh*thouse, and then later on I'll take a bath and get out and start concentrating on how beautiful life really is. Because it really is.
Put some sad songs on and really make use of that crying session. Nothing clears the soul like a good old cry fest. If I was there I would cry along with you.
cry fests are therapeutic. just make sure that you dont catch a glimpse of yourself doing ugly cry in the mirror. kinda kills the groove seeing snot streams down your face LOL!.
life is beautiful, but it is also hard, so make sure to allow yourself to not build up too much 'i need to cope' anxiety. this coming from me is almost humorous, but you get my drift.
love you, and wish i had a box of tissues and was standing on your doorstep about to ring the bell.
I'm not going to beat around the bush with this, but this bloody sucks! It's not fair, it really isn't. I don't want you to be sick and have to go through all that. I don't want to be so far away from you and not be able to pop around and help when you're having a bad day. I don't want those two gorgeous girls to have to worry about this. I thought I could be really strong and dish out all the right words to make you feel better but I can't. You are one of the most genuine and gorgeous people I have ever had the priviledge to know and it's just not right that you have to go through all this. I just wish I could take it all away for you.
MD, I'm so sorry to hear the latest developments I hope you're feeling better after a good cry, I'm a firm believer in having a good gut wrenching sob and you certainly are entitled to it.
MD - have a sookielala day - you're entitled to it, do you have somebody there who will just hold you? That is what I always needed the most - just the cuddles, no words, just cuddles.
Then once you're all cried out, I want you to grab some candles, fill the bath, pour some incredibly decadant and expensive bath oil in there, sprinkle rose petals over the water, light the candles, grab a glass & a bottle of wine, play some soothing music and go sit in the bath until you go all wrinkly - or better yet get DH to do all the preparation work and then just go in there and relax. You can put a treatment in your hair and a facemask on if you want to - but you need some YOU time.
Aw Trill. Hun. It's not about fairness or rightness or wrongness. It's just the way things are. And all the other stuff - how much my DD has to worry - etc - all that is utterly within my control. How I face this and what I do every single day for the next six months of my life will determine how hard or easy this is. The only way through it is through it. I'm the only person who can go there and come out the other side.
The reason I'm on the planet this time is to be a healer. I've been prevaricating over this for too long. The universe is just kicking me squarrrr in the pants to get on with it!! This is my path of power, however it turns out. Healer, heal thyself.
I"m sorry I had a bit of a meltdown about it earlier, it just seems like too many people I love and care about is having to deal with this way before their time. If anyone is going to deal with this with grace and aplomb it is you my friend.
Trill - can I just say that i'm glad you let it all out. I too have been thinking constantly about our MD. Thinking and feeling all of those things as well.
Md - You're fabulous and I love ya
I must say that one of the suckiest things about this particular situation is the way it leaks out and causes other people around me to suffer too. For once in my life I can't just suck it all up inside myself so that no one else feels the impact of my pain. Maybe that's one of the lessons the crab brings.
I know what you're saying MD but you have to allow people to support you. They feel pain because they care about you and really at the end of the day, I think we're put on the planet to care and look after other people. That means allowing others to care about us as well as us caring about them. And when this is all over the fact that they've shared difficult times with you will mean they can share in your euphoria when you get a clean bill of health.
I know it's hard not to want to protect everyone else but ... sometimes you just can't.
BTW, I know you know all this. I think we all need a little reminder now and again though.
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