Reply With QuoteMD, all I can say is, when life hands you lemons, you make Lemonade. Nothing can be gained from wallowing, so be as zen as you possibly can be and I'll be thinking of you over the next few days my love
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MD, what a nervewracking experience to go through! You seem like such an inspirational and positive person. Will be thinking of you
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MD, all I can say is, when life hands you lemons, you make Lemonade. Nothing can be gained from wallowing, so be as zen as you possibly can be and I'll be thinking of you over the next few days my love
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On that note Trill, i saw a better saying..... "When life hands you lemons..................... grab the tequila and salt!"
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Thanks ladies, it will be lemonade and tequila all the way thru to next week.
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I'm madly making lemonade with ya MD. Would love it to be tequila though!!! Thinking of you.
Lucy in the sky with diamonds.
Fark babe.
TEQUILA!!!
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md- i hope you don't think i'm ignoring all this, it's just all a little raw for me having been through it with my mum, so i tend to stick my head in the sand now when i hear the c-word associated with someone i care about. just know that i'm thinking of you, but i find it very hard to talk about....self preservation i guess you'd call it.
i'm so proud of your zen state, your courage....just know i'm thinking of you hun, even if i'm not posting in here a lot xoxo
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MD - sending you energy to help you get through this
Actually you may find that the oncology treatment area isn't as stark as first glimpses give you - I used to go weekly with mum for nearly 2 years (and for 10 years before that visiting her haematologist who's rooms are just down the corridor) and the strength and optimism of the people there used to floor me every time I'd walk through the door.
Take things day by day. Nourish your body with good food, good thoughts, good friends. We're all here to give you any support you need, day or night.
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MD, I'm bringing the tequila over for you love. Keep that hope in your heart, you are strong, and your strength, wisdom and humour will continue to guide you.
Thinking of you
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Thank you so much everyone.
Rainy - I know you're thinking of me hun, I can "feel" it coming from over there on the mountain!No need to visit your pain on account of me my dear friend. Just remember, I'm not having the 'c-word', I'm having an important transformative life event. I really believe that the energy dysfunction now lies behind me, it's all healing and self-awareness for me from now on.
Thanks APunks for reframing the chemo thing for me. I'm not sure that it even lies in my path, but if it were going to be something I'd experience, I'm sure it would be a powerful life affirmation (once you get over the initial confrontingness and plunge in). I really hope that this tiny glimpse I have had means that in future I will be able to stand strong and fearless and truly present for others around me who might have to walk this path in a deeper way than I have. The gift of being truly 100% present for another person is the most important thing you can do, ever, in life. APunks, what a powerful gift you gave when you were there for your mum in such a deep way when she needed you. xxx
Well I had the bone marrow biopsy this morning - I was very anxious about the sedation aspect - about being too drugged to respond in the event of feeling distressed. However, the anaesthetist was a wonderfully warm and reassuring woman who explained beforehand that the drugs are used specifically to avoid distress. She was accompanied by an 'extra' who just happened to be a gun at getting a cannula in first go.I recall chatting and joking with them as they were prepping me, and while I was going under, then nothing at all until they told me they were finished. Apparently I talked throughout. ROFL. (Wouldn't i just love to know what an off-the-wall conversation that would have been). I asked to see the samples, and I was struck how similar they looked to the huge long core samples that geologists take, except little eeny weeny ones in a jar. So that's one hurdle jumped, never to be scary ever again.
Tomorrow i have the PET scan, which is an exercise in being really truly radioactive for a few hours. Get your glow in the dark jokes in now while you can, ladies! But it does give me the excuse of lingering in a cafe/cinema etc for a few hours afterwards (while my half-life decays) instead of going straight home to hug my little Missy E.
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Isnt it wonderful when you get just the right person there to assist you. So pleased you were able to go through it with relative ease. Hope tomorrows scan is ok too. xo
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Ruf, yes it is wonderful. I was telling someone just yesterday that ever since my gallstone thing started there has been one special person there for me at every stage of the way. One person, that's all it takes to transform the experience.
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Oh I'm so glad to hear that it all went well for you (although I can just imagine what you were talking about ROFL). Tomorrow I think you need to get yourself a good book, and find a cosy little coffee shop and read away the hours till "Radioactive MD' is gone.
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Glad you had a pleasant experience in the circumstances MD
Enjoy your movie tomorrow too - nice excuse for some 'you time'.
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Great to hear the biopsy went so smoothly
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I'm glad the biopsy wasn't as painful/stressful than you initially thought. bone marrow biopsies are a PITA- I used to hate my regular ones coz of mum (her initial condition may or may not be genetic and starts in the bone marrow) - my brother chickened out after his first, I used to have one every 18 months. My mum was a hoot under the anesthetic - I always got a giggle when I sat in the theater during hers.
Nah the best glow in the dark stuff is the drops they put in your eyes (which then drip out your nose!) when they're checking after caterract surgery - I sucked up big time to my mum's opthamologist for some of those drops to use for raves - totally freaky!
MD - when mum used to go, there used to be much laughing etc, what they would do was the really sick ones would be in their own private rooms - mum only had to go in there once or twice and only when she was close to the end. Yes it can be very confronting, each time I walked in there I used to have to confront my own mortality - but I had to be there for here - even if she was an in-patient at the hospital at the time I'd be there for her each Friday. It wasn't something I had to do, it was something I wanted to do, even if I just sat next to her doing work on the laptop while she snoozed.
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LOL very funnybone marrow biopsies are a PITA
APunks - how long and how frequently did you have to get the biopsies for...do you still routinely have them?
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Good to hear it went well MD. First shot on tricky veins? Did you get thier pager number no you can just call them first time next time?????
No sneaking in any sugar now MD! Good luck tomorrow. xxxx
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