So did you test, or speak to DP? I hope you can both sort something out contraception wise, as others have said, maybe right bow is not the best tine for another bub, best focus on the one you have first. What the heart wants and what you actually need can be very different things. Although I understand you'd love to be preg now, I'd hate for you to have another baby without resolving your issues with DP not helping, PND etc etc.