Thanks Kate. I think I need to be re-assured that it is indeed normal. Last nigth i spent a total of 1.5 hours to put her to sleep.
The whole week last week she would just take the boob and fall asleep. all i had to do was transfer her into the bassinet (although during the day it is only ball bouncing and nothing else to sleep) but the last few nigths it has just been difficult.
My problem is ... by the time it gets to that hour... I have run out of steam and patience.... and all i want to do is get some shut eye. sometimes i lose it and cry and cry. then i feel bad for being frustrated because other people have more kids... and some have a harder time putting their babies to sleep than I do.

Then come some people who indirectly say it's my fault she is like that because i "give in" to her every time she cries. I pick her up too much and it's my fault i got her used to being bounced on the gym ball to sleep. and its my fault she is frantic when we are out because i dont get her used to different environments and its my fault that she always cries when being put down because i always carry her in my sling.

then it comes to a point when i feel like maybe i did it wrong. maybe i shouldnt have done this and that differently and she would not be so sad and crying all the time.

and worse of all... i am made to feel that because of all the parenting decisions i have made .... she has stranger (people,place & environment) anxiety.... they compare her to other babies her age and none of them cry like her or are clingy like her. they swaddle their babies... put them in the bassinet/cot and they fall right asleep or they stay quiet until they are ready to sleep then fall asleep. not a beep. and mine lets the whole neighbourhood know she isnt happy. I feel like a wreck sometimes. Like it's my fault she isn't as jolly as the other babies

my problem is i need to be re-assured that im doing the right thing, its nromal and that this will all pass . thank God for this forum.

sorry. whingy.