Awwww Shannon, I think you are being way too hard on yourself, particularly in your situation. I can't even begin to imagine how hard things must be for you, I'm surprise that you are still able to function and still be intelligent and articulate. I think I would just be a lump on the floor incapable of doing anything at all. I think that you are doing a superb job and I know I'm not there to see everything that you do, but I don't blame you for being at the end of your rope at times, it must be extremely frustrating for you. It breaks my heart that you feel this way, please know that I am always here if you need to talk, you have my number and if not I can give it again, but you also have my e-mail and I am on your messenger. Would love to get together again soon too, especially if you're gonna be going to Brissy.

Take care