Just wanted to report back on the 'meet the experts' evening I went to. It was one of those things where all the professionals understand what it takes to get a good birth and what good newborn care is... and all the attendees are first time parents booked into fancy hospitals with an OBGYN who they love and "is going to let me do it however I want". Sure. Whatever.

I always find those things get me a bit frustrated and I end up just going quiet because they need to ask all their questions and hopefully end up finding a better experience. I did find out that the situation here is pretty similar to Australia, there are just MORE things to say "no" to in a hospital here. Homebirth transfer is apparently pretty good at the little "non-fancy" hospital that they all transfer too if needed and they will still be as unmedical as possible. But newborn care... you have to add to your list of "do nots" things like no antibacterial cream in baby's eyes, no bath or else they wash them before even handing them over to the mother! If you choose not to have your baby washed then it's a biohazard and all the staff have to wear gloves when they hold it. Oh lordy!

Anyway, we've pretty much decided we're not having a baby any time soon. I need too much energy to give my eldest the support he needs and I can't find a preschool that allows you to bring a baby during parent help. So we would have to have a baby at the beginning of the summer holidays so it is as old as possible before leaving it with a babysitter to do parent help and that means getting pregnant in a couple of months. Which we're not ready for at all. So maybe we'll wait another year or maybe we're done? I'm a bit sad about that and it is hard knowing that had things been different I'd be pregnant again already because I do want another one. That's life huh?