So my midwife had to cancel today, she had a hospital birth. i get a text this afternoon, "can you come to the clinic thursday afternoon at 4.30pm" when i said no she said "Friday 10.30am" I said "if i make it to then i will be 8 days more pregnant than i have ever been and with my history of quick births i don't think i will want to travel 35mins to come to you?" So she said "well you don't really need one so lets just make it next monday…. That will be a fortnight since i have seen her. Im not really worried but surely this isn't the time to dump appointments??? If i go into labour she will find the time to come so why wouldn't you find it tomorrow or wednesday? Am i being sensitive about this? I have never been this pregnant, i am having another home birth as i had a negative experience last birth, she knows i was upset that the last MW did come when i needed her at the end of my last pregnancy. I am paying $4000 for the comfort and support of a MW. And I'm going 2 weeks without an appointment….. My mum thinks its because she thinks i will birth before then but hey we ALL thought i would have birthed by now….. Baby is moving and i don't have any signs of there being any concern but she didn't even ask that? She didn't ask if i needed or wanted to see her before then…..

Please be honest, don't just be on my side, this feels odd but i am tired and hormonal