Thanks bella, and everyone. Yes I think the biggest thing I had to process was the expectation that it would be here. With 4 little people and a husband on leave we did have so many plans. It's very hard on the kids waiting too. But once the shock of getting here settled the other day my other fears have left me. Not sure how long I'll stay sane/brave/calm for but today I'm ok. Seeing the MW at 2pm and have found an Accupuncture lady that will see me tonight, if I want to start going down that path.

Know you are a little stressed about a Bfp but nice to hear that you and your husband let your hair down a bit and just enjoyed each other. With two big girls and an unsettled baby it's hard to remember that you like one another sometimes.