Thankyou so much ladies xx you are all so gorgeous xx

I am seeing my midwife (yes Melissa, MadB) on Tuesday so i will be having a big ol' chat with her. I started writing a list today of all the things I need to buy/get ready and already feel a little better.
I think you're right Tegam, I really did not expect this baby to make it. I guess part of me still doesn't I have been protecting myself by distancing myself. Even my 11 year old daughter has noticed and commented on it!
I have started talking to the baby and really trying to connect with him. The poor child.. I feel so bad, like I've neglected him already I'm really going to be focusing on him these next 6 or so weeks (and beyond, of course!).
Thanks for all the advice.. I really, really appreciate it xx