Thank you so much Cricket, Arcadia and HotIHotI, I am sorry that your babymoon was not as you had hoped it would be.
The LC that I saw on Thursday told me to apply an anti-fungal like Canestan or Daktarin gel and to wash my nipples in bi carb and water. I have just been using Canestan frequently and doing bicarb wash twice a day.
Last night, I was in so much pain - when feeding and when not feeding. I was worried that the shooting pains were mastitis coming back. I decided to google. I actually went straight to the page you mentioned Arcadia! After reading that I realised that I probably wasn't given a good enough treatment plan by the LC. The pain is in my breast not just nipple. I do not feel that a topical ointment alone can knock it over. Thanks for the advice Arcadia, I really appreciate it. I am going to try and get in to my GP ASAP. I am also considering going on anti-candida diet.
Ok back on track! PZ, I wanted to comment about your posts. I had planned a HB for my 1st preg. My situation is a bit different- I didn't transfer per se, rather it became apparent over the course of 3 days that I would have to go to hosp. I had premature rupture of membranes at 36+4, and I didn't go in to labour. My MW's monitored me at home for 72 hours. When I went to hosp, the OB advised an induction. I talked it over with DH and MW's. My MW's were worried about my energy levels. I had barely slept in 3 days- 40+ degree weather and scattered contractions ensured restless nights. The OB said I would have to come back each day for monitoring. He aso let it be known that he would have induced me after 48 hours. And I was taking AB's too. In the end, I agreed to the induction. I'd had 3 days to gradually get used to the fact that I may not have my HB. Once I knew that I would be having bub in hospital, I set a new 'goal' - no epidural. I think I had a good hosp birth because my HB MW's were there. The hosp staff left us alone until it was time to push.my bub out.
I have often thought back over the situation. Should I have said 'no' to the induction and gone in each day for monitoring? Would I have gone in to spontaneous labour on my own, eventually? Could I have had my HB? Did I give in too soon? I know that my MW's think I made the right decision. I thought I had at the time- and I guess that is all we can do. Make the decision that we think is right with the knowledge we have at the time. I know that I used my hosp birth to empower me to HB- if I could withstand an induced labour, strapped to a monitor, without pain relief, I could definitely HB!
I don't think hanging around in here is going to be a good influence on me!
I don't know about thrush but it sounds painful. I had difficult BFing journeys with both my babies and while I was disappointed it happened again the second time around, it was also validating that I didn't do anything 'wrong' the first time- I have babies with high palates and attachment is very difficult for the first month or so so I end up with very painful BFing and low supply. It makes me a little scared of another baby because to me a newborn spells weeks of screaming, crying, suffering and angst. I agree that it's such a downer after a beautiful birth. I think the power of that amazing birth helps you ride it better though. the big thing that helped me was hiring an electric breast pump and resting a side for 6, 12 or even 24 hours if I needed to. granted, 24 hours on the pump and my supply was dropping but then lots of feeds and the supply some back up and it helped keep me sane. When I was at that point of almost loathing seeing my baby awake or being SO scared of trying to attach him then out would come the pump and I could give myself a break, relax again and keep getting through it. I hope things are improving 
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