Hi Barb,
DD is putting on great weight but in saying that she has been having formula top ups for awhile now. From about 3 weeks old she has been taking the bottle. For instance last night she wanted an extra feed at around 8pm which didnt really surprise me, she has been sleeping more and I think she is having a bit of a growth spurt but after an hour she was still crying because she was just hungry as soon as I tricked her into taking the bottle (giving her breast and putting the bottle in replacing the breast) she was happy and smiling again.

I will definately ask about the other drug and see how I go because taking the maxalon is driving me batty, I struggle to get up and all I can think about is when she is going back to sleep so I can too. As much as I love playing with her.

I was in a MBU for 3 weeks being treated for PND, it seems to be a mixture of the shock of the change, serious bonding issues which have now totally dissolved and being absolutely clueless on how to care for a baby that lead up to my hospital stay, it was the best thing I did. I learnt so much and came out loving my little smudge like I never imagined. I was on antidepressants but even at the lowest dose I was very agitated and asked if we could try something else so I am having counselling twice a week and included in that is relaxation therapies, conflict resolution strategies (for my partner and I) cognitive behavioural therapy and basically learning how to communicate which is a big problem for me. It takes a lot of effort to 'feel better' when I feel down (mostly when DP and I are arguing coz at the moment I can only handle one thing at a time and I try to make that DD rather then DP's argument) but I'm getting there and it makes the differences so much nore noticeable and something to really be proud of each time I notice a difference in how I react or feel to things.

I was thinking last night not one of my friends have bfed and so I should really be proud to be able to get as far as I can. I will keep going as long as I can but like I said it seems I have gone from 1 top up feed to 2 to 3 and yesterday 4. I hear all these stories of leaky boobs and expressing for babies and neither work for me, they used to, but not any more. So I am worried that as soon as I stop the maxalon my supply will be worse and I dont want a starving baby, I hate hearing her cry and she is a garbage guts LOL.