Lozza,

I haven't anything to add that will help your plight right now that is different to anything above. What I will say is that whatever you decide, fortify yourself with people who will support your decision. Right now, you need people around you who will help you cope which ever way you go. Avoid people who are focussing on thier needs for a while and it will help you work out what is best for you.

In the past I have tried to justify myself to those types - it is not worth it. Workout what you want/need and focus on people who will help you get to that point.

Good luck!