Hey,
How is everyone??? It's hard to believe i am 22 weeks tomorrow, the time seems to be flying through~ I can feel my little girl kick away and move~ She has certain times when shes at her most active. (when i'm first trying to go to sleep, when i'm studing, and during my exams... But she kicks heaps when i'm driving my car - musten like the seatblet~ lolz) other then the odd pain here and there, and worring about this and that, it's all going well... I go for my forth scan at 26weeks (which is ony 4 weeks away yippeee )

I'm so glad were at the end of the year, and i'm finishing all my classes (i'm at uni)... I'll be able to sleep in more I went baby shopping todya, without buying anything, because i have no idea what i do need and what i dont, and whats a good price or brand - it's all sooo confusing,i'll go car shopping anyday at least i know more there! hehe(anyone got a list of what a first time mum needs to buy? LOl i'm lost)

My little bubs has already got her own nickname (blob) after the first ultrasound i had thats all i could see, and the name has really stuck - everyone calls her blob now, which is really cute...

Blob's father is really p**sing me off at the moment... I havn't seen him for the last 2 months because he's being so immature and i always end up a mess if i see him... and he's blaming me for fighting soo much, but when i think about it - even with all my hormonal outburst, we havn't had a prober fight in months~!~!~ but everytime i ask him a question about blob he goes off syaing he dosn't want to fight about it at the moment which is really frustrating because i think it is a topic that we should be talking about...

I manage to ask him what he wanted - as in if he was sticking around and what kind of contact he wanted with blob... He he said he wants to be a part of blobs life, and wnats to come to the birth... But ask he what hospital im having the baby at or whats her due date he dosn't have a clue (even tho i have told him heaps)... It's just getting frustrating because he has 2 other kids, and he's soo much appart of there life (whihc he should be) i'm starting to resent him for not being that excited about his daughters???

And I still getting called the bad person~ his family and friends are still saying that i'm the stupid one getting pregnatn (i remember quite clearly it was a joint effort) and that i'm not letting him come into any appointments, and i dont wnat him apart of our lives... Which is completly the opposite, I would love nothing more for him to know his daughter and visa versa i have said that from the start, i hvae invited him to every appointment and ultrasound (there has been a lot of them) and even made them on days he had off work, but he still refuses to come...

I jsut don't know what more i can doo~ It's hurting and im frustrated~ and if i go on anymore i'm gonna be in tears - so i going leave it at that...

Thanks to listening to my little rant...

Take care,
Cass and Blob~