Oh Possums - I am so sorry about the cancelled cycle. Been there done that. I know it's difficult. You begin to build up your hopes only to find them snatched away before you even get a chance.
I was also going to suggest swapping to Lucrin. Always set your phone alarm to ensure you are always doing it within 10-15 mins daily.
Believe me when I tell you that I know how you feel, it's so hard.
You are entitled to bad days...but only some...
What keeps me going is to keep looking forward..always have a plan to look ahead to.
Take care sweetie..