He there lovely ladies,

DH and i have finally taken the plunge after my big denial phase - which included trying everything under the sun that WASN'T assisted reproduction.

I started the synarel yesterday and am terrified of the Gonal F injections due to start next thursday. Not just of the needle itself (PHOBIAAA), but scared that it isn't the right dose for me and i end up having to cancel the cycle.

I'm also worried because the clinic i am at intend to do embrio transfer rather than blastocyst (unless there are too many good embies to choose from by day 3). My mind is circling around the possibility of choosing a bad embie that seemed good, which would have been apparent if blastocyst was done.

See, my worries.. and i'm sure they are unfounded and just based on paranoia, but i just can't help it.

I have, however, already started off with acupuncture - so i hope that will help, even if it is just my head space that it helps.

I feel so lost because i don't have anybody around me that understands or can even show any real kind of support, not even DH. So i guess i just needed to spill some of my many thoughts out to you guys...

TIA for any words of advice that you can give me X X X X X X.