Ok.. i'll admit i'm tired.. emotional and exhausted. But feeling really overwhelmed at the moment.

DH work away most of the week.. so it's me me and me to do everything.

I was up a fair bit last night to the 19mo and 4.5yo.. and all I can think of now.. is when the next bub comes, how am I going to handle it!?

We transitioned the 19mo into a big girls bed in with her sisters (all 3 girls share the large rumpus room), but she has been having trouble settling, so in pure exhaustion, i've let her sleep in the cot in the nursery. This normally isn't an issue, but kinda need that spot for the new bub in a week or so!

Add into that, I most likely will only be having 2 months off work.. agrh.. it is all so overwhelming.

I heard once that there was a service the government offered for baby sitting after hours that your CCB applied to if you have 3 under 5.. not family day care.. it's like an occassional service? Anyone know of this?

phew.. thanks for listening.. i might go have another cry.. try wish this bub out of my tum and try to remember what god has blessed me with and be thanklful..

any advice on how you handle things.. i'm ALL ears!