I feel so sad....

[melham74]

Sounds to me like he has issues that he needs to work out for himself. hope things improve for you soon though.

[Lisa]

Yep... I have been through something very similar myself.
The best thing that happened was that he cheated and gave me the final kick in the butt that I needed to leave him.
I am not saying that this is what is happening here, nor that this is the right thing for your situation (leaving him etc) but seriously... if he is making you feel so terrible, perhaps you should look at what you both need to do to make things right... and if things don't get better, look at your other options.
Have you considered joining a playgroup, or searching for other mum's in your area (eg; on here)... having an outlet for just you and your bubba might be a great start... and as Cookiemonster mentioned, perhaps the 2 of you could try counselling... and if he doesn't agree to it, maybe you could go on your own... you might both benefit from you going... and eventually he might get curious and want to join in too.
I really hope things improve for you soon. Big hugs