hey gorgeous lea i had my 3 big kids with a complete moron he doesnt even see the girls anymore but now i had a baby with les i know what u mean its completely different when your happy and i thought the same about being pg older cuase when i had the girls i was only young but i think when i was pg with jess i enjoyed it more cause i was happy and more mature .i never thought i would have another baby after courtney but when i met les i knew straightway i wanted a baby with him and hes the best dad i just hope one day i can give him a boy .